seems like christmas is here. i dont really know what to think. earlier (novemberish) i was so excited about being excited about christmas, but now that the time where i really should let the christmas spirit lose hase come, i cant seem to find it. last year, christmas wasnt really normal christmas as i spent it in china without my family, so i should be that much more excited about it this year. maybe i just haven’t really realised that the i left the christmas excitement somewhere along the way whilst shedding my childhood skin. dont get me wrong – i still like christmas time, and im excited about seeing my family, giving out presents and not to forget: the food. maybe i cant enjoy the christmas chaos bacause im blinded by the way i used to feel around christmas time, but im excited about other things now. it used to be presents, now not so much. although i do have a lot of wishes this year. they’re just not actual physical things you can wrap and put under the tree.
my brother is coming over tomorrow til tuesday, and i am actually really excited about that. its been a while since i last saw him (– this boarding school has snatched him from me).